On Monday I went to see my Oncologist, following recent tests and a scan. He confirmed that I have a tumour on my right ovary possibly a small one on the left too. (I’ve been questioning my ovaries for a couple of years now). I also have disease in my bowel. I’m been suffering terrible pain due to the bowel and right ovary, I’m on morphine and liquid morphine. However I feel a sense of relief that my concerns have been vindicated. The proposal is ileostomy(bowel to external bag) and remove my ovaries.
I will still have cancer in other areas, nevertheless this is to eliminate pain and give me a quality of life. Morphine in a cancer patient always represents end of life to me, therefore at some point it’s going to be needed so I don’t want to use all my options at this stage. If I have the op, I hope to come off the morphine until it is required again.
He’s going to discuss my case with a very experienced surgeon this Wednesday as he feels my case is quiet complex. (I’ve had 3 cancer surgeries already). The surgeon will then send me an appointment to see him and hopefully give me an operation date.
How do I feel:-
I’m ok, pleased that my concerns have finally been acknowledged. I want to get off morphine and hopefully be somewhat pain free. It’s no fun being in pain all the time with everything else going on. Yes the bag is not a great option but I will take it, if it eliminates pain and gives me more freedom.
Next week, I’m seeing an ENT Consultant because I appear to have developed a hoarse voice. Now I know this might be attractive to some people, a husky voice but it’s so random. My Oncologist asked my GP to arrange it locally. His concern is its cancer because it’s been going on for a few months, therefore he wants to eradicate the possibility. I hope not, enough is enough. Should it be I will deal with it head on as always.
Mr Zebrakat as per normal, is with me on every appointment. I would be lost without his continuous support. Thank you Mr Zebrakat for absolutely everything that you do. ❤️
Love to you all 😘x including my Oncologist
PS I’m just working on Part 2, Black Country Living Museum. The post will be on by Saturday.